looks like i'm spending my christmas here in taiwan.  OMG that thought depresses me!  no christmas tree, no pretty street lights, no presents, no boxing day!?!? i'm going to CRY ...

but hoping for better tmr always   who knows i may just change my mind and forget everything and fly outta here!

***keeping my fingers crossed***

i've been a good girl, santa bring me what i want!!! and can i have 'em now, please?

i must say sometimes i feel very lucky even tho i maybe in the downs when it comes to my mood.  the few people i treasure as friends always come through.  i feel horrible tho.  i've been acting like a needy child lately.  arg, who am i kidding, i'm weak when it comes to certain things.  but i have been acting out of character.  i don't get myself!  but i must say, things aren't so bad at all.  not at all.  in fact, sometimes it's kind of nice. 

oh i miss the winters back in montreal.  i miss being wrapped up in my nice coat with ear muffs, hat, scarves, gloves and my furry snow boots.  hot chocolate or latte with apple pie in a cafe (usually starbucks or 2nd cup) with heat cranked up high.  yum   i really liked waking up in the morning to a white city freshly covered in snow.  romantic .  although i must say all the falling on icy roads ain't cool at all....but i still miss it.

perks of a relationship:

cuddling

lil' sweet pecks on ur cheeks, forhead, hair, lips, hand....blah blah blah

long romantic kisses

someone that cares for u

relationship burdens:

the feeling of being hurt

why do i detest relationships so...? the hurt

it was so long ago. i can't remember how bad it hurted but i remember it was pretty bad. 

i wonder if i hurted or could hurt anyone that bad as well.

i'm so tired.

i'll call less...and less and less.  i'm gona be less dependent on u.